She was the one who kept me breathing when I was isolated from the rest of the world , the one who understood my pain and joy , the one who taught me to express my emotions to the outside world . She made me feel I was not alone . She had been with me through all my difficult times .
She did not come easy into my life . It took me several months of hardship and perseverance to find her . And now she is gone . All that she had expected from me was some time and attention . And I had been so insensitive that I had failed to see her gradually go far away from me and finally leave me . It is true that you don’t realize the worth of something you possess until you lose it . I ignored her . I took her for granted. I was lazy and gave myself all the lame excuses for not attending to her . I pretended I was busy . But now .. I had lost her ..
Its hard to reclaim something that one has lost in his life . My passion for writing is what I had lost and to reclaim her is much harder . It needs patience and focus . You have to think of something different every single time – a new theme , a new perspective , a new way of narration etc., else you become monotonous . You have to give wings to your thoughts.All I need is a new sunrise.
And all this becomes ten times harder when you’ve had to work on nothing but CAT and MBA for the past twelve months .Thanks to CAT prep , I have the goals listed above but the way to go about it –clueless .(Would have helped if CAT included a section on writing too !! :P) Now I put pen to paper and the best I could come up with was the different ways in which I could put my signature . Doesn’t really help , right !!!
So , never let your passion for something in you die down . Keep her alive . Give it some time and attention and she would keep you alive .
Starting from ground zero , again .. In pursuit of my passion .
Cheers J
