It'd flash before his eyes, the whole episode, like it had happened just yesterday. He couldn't stop thinking about it.
The feeling was petrifying. He couldn't remember the last time he had slept, not without help atleast. The fear had crawled into the very texture of his bones that it made him tremble. It broke him down by every ounce of his self. The fear of letting others in on his darkest secret, or worse if someone figures it out. The consequences, just the thought of it, made him drop on his knees. He couldn't let the one sin of his past haunt his family. He cared too much to worry less about little Brandon and Shelly.
He had to remain strong, even if it meant being ruthless. He couldn't run away from the truth. He knew he had to face the consequences someday, but not just yet. He was prepared to go as far as it took to protect his family. Right and wrong didn't matter to him. He didn't have a choice. He had to protect his secret, his dark self. He could not afford to get exposed.
He had turned into the exact monster that once haunted him. Less did he know that in the process, he would come so far as to not going back. He had tried to cover blood with blood and now there was just too much to cover up.
It'd flash before his eyes, the whole episode, like it just happened yesterday. He couldn't stop thinking about it. The picture of him stabbing that monster, against the law, to keep the streets clean. He had him buried in his garden with a fountain built over it.
He isolated himself from his very own family to keep them protected from the monster he would turn out to be, in the quest to hide his secret. He had outgrown his secret. It didn't matter anymore. So much blood to be wiped out that the floor would never be the same.
Now there was no going back. The only way he could protect his secret and identity was only if .. if there was nothing to hide. He lit up a joint and had a few deep puffs before he slit himself across his throat and lay there in his own garden with nothing to hide from the world anymore.
- Inspired from the character of Alexander Mahone - Prison Break
