“The best thing about being a woman is that, It’s a man’s
world out there !!”
I had read the word Feminism and Feminists while I was still
a boy but never really could wrap my head around it then because it was
discussed and debated so less in stark contrast to what it is now. Today
everyone is a feminist and everyone supports feminism but I’m still clueless
about it as I was a decade back.
Nobody had the definition of a perfect woman back then. Some thought it was okay for a woman to go
out while some didin’t. Some educated their girls while others put them within
the confines of their homes. Some felt it was not a woman’s place to interrupt
while they spoke and cross their legs in front of others. Well !! Everyone had
their own definition and everyone equally confused as the other. So, I as a boy
had no clue as to how a woman should be.
I felt it weird when I entered my new school and there
was a girl with a wooden ruler in her hand monitoring the class filled majorly
with boys. It took me a while to settle down to this as so far I had seen girls
as timid and shy who whisper to each
other. But this one was different. I was immediately drawn to her aura and
confidence. She would walk around the class as if she owned it. In a class
dominated by boys, it was unnatural that they let a girl feel equal and a step further, be controlled by her. So,
they would make fun of her walk and confront her decisions at every step trying
to put her down. But she would silence them with one stare in their eyes.
Nobody dared further. She was every teacher’s favourite, she held the top rank
and was extremely well behaved. I left a year later to a different school in a
new city due to my dad’s transfer.
Years later, found out through a friend that she was also in
my college. I was wondering what she had grown into. Had the years changed her
? Had she gained in confidence ? I was to find out. But I was so sure that no
matter what, she would certainly stand out from the crowd and she did. She had
joined Mechatronics while other girls usually preferred to join the comfortable
Computer Science or IT Engineering. She didn’t mind getting her hands dirty and
headed the Cultural Team at College of our year. While other girls garnered
attention with the clothes they wore and the number of boys in pursuit of them,
she roamed in a Khakhi uniform with mostly grease mark on the hands. She
bothered less about what others thought of her and more about what she believed
in. I was a mere spectator and admirer to all this.
A year later, a guy fell in love with her and after months
of pursuit, wooed her to win her over. I was happy for her as she was often
singled out by her friends ( Not just a men problem, even women cannot handle
successful independent women !! )and now she had someone to truly care for her.
She did not entirely let herself to trust him initially but after a few months,
gained the confidence that he valued her aspirations and could be relied upon.
She let her guard down and for the first time, actually wanted to have all
those moments of chivalry from a man she loved. She had now begun to picture
her dreams together with him. She loved the way he held her and made her feel
safe, not that she needed anyone to protect her but this feeling reassured her faith in him. She let him be the
man in the relationship, she respected his ego and didn’t let him feel
insecure. She helped him with his career aspirations and motivated him from
being an average guy to a class apart. He even prepped for GATE so that he
could give her a better life and got into IIT Madras. She had made the world of
difference to his life.
While I and my other friends ended up in the IT sector,
She went on to join Anand Automotives initially and then to Honeywell in
Hyderabad. She was so sure to pursue her dreams and didn’t think twice about
choosing her passion over other comfortable desk jobs.
A year later after college, I learned that she was going
through some trouble in her relationship. The couple who once were head over
heels in love with each other, couldn’t make the long distance relationship
work. The distance and the resultant insecurity, caused the guy to question her
loyalty, something she could never forgive him for. The guy had been too
controlling and couldn’t take her outspoken and friendly nature at her
workplace. He constantly complained about the clothes she wore and the group of
friends she hung out with. The job
nature of a woman in a factory set up warrants interaction with men and her guy
was not comfortable with that. After pestering her to move to Chennai, to
abusing her emotionally ,to blaming her for his insecurities, she had had
enough. She tried to hold on to the relationship she so truly believed but it
was time to let go. It was hard for a butterfly to feel trapped and she didn’t.
She woke up one day and felt she had already moved on from him. Not to anyone
else, but to greater things in life.
So, it’s really upon women to decide if they want to play
the victim card or feel powerful.
I as a boy had no clue as to how a woman should be. As a
man, I still don’t because a man is not the one to decide how a woman should be
!!
Just admire, embrace and cherish them.
